it's august 19th and already the hint of fall is in the air. i don't have my fan on and i'm under a blanket and that's comfortable. of course, i still have bug bites, including a particularly annoying one i just discovered on my butt (i'm wearing boxers and apparently a mosquito climbed on in them). i love the changing of the seasons. there's all that promise of wiping the slate clean, making big changes, feeling free again.

i've just gotten myself into a relationship. not sure what kind, whether it's going to be a positive experience or not. i'm leaning toward the positive, but he drinks a lot and has depressive tendencies, so i don't know. i'm nervous.

my job sucks. i hate it, but they're paying for this year of school, so i'm trying to stick around. everytime i end up crying in my office now i just try and think of the endgame.

the sister is pregnant. it's exciting and scary. very exciting most of all. i haven't really thought about how it's going to change our family forever. big big big.

ugh, i should have eaten more for dinner.