sometimes i feel as if i've gone mad. it's been a month and a half and i havent seen him ONCE. my roommate did, but i haven't. it's like we've suddenly ended up in two completely different dimensions. did he fall off the face of the earth? why is it still important that i see him? and what the hell would i say if i did?

one of the things about getting dumped, that i'm just dealing with now, is the consequences of rejection. that sounds obvious, but i'm talking about rejection. how it makes you feel when you're just not good enough for someone. it makes you feel ugly. unlovely. untouchable. like you'll never be wanted again. it's one of those times when i don't even recognize myself in the mirror.