what the fuck. what is my brain doing to me? so i've been successfully not thinking about the asshole who dumped me. but instead my brain has decided to begin thinking about boys i should certainly not be thinking about. including one who recently gained a girlfriend. and who i never actually dated, but who tried to kiss me and i turned away. and this was months ago. and for some reason my avoidance behavior steers me straight to him. what the fuck. yes, i'm attracted to him and always have been. but he's got a new girlfriend! and i've never had serious feelings for him, just mild attraction. why is my mind filling him in? is this my mind's way of protecting me from thinking about the ex? should i force myself to think of him to face what's really happening here? or should i just put it out of my mind until months from now when i can't remember the shape of his face?