i'm bad. i've started daydreaming about someone. it's funny how this doesn't mean anything related about what's his face. though slowly i'm beginning (hopefully) to replace missing what'shisface with daydreaming about McMakeMeBlush (yes, i am stealing from greys' anatomy). it's not quite like i'm doing it on purpose. i don't know. i think of this boy (he's 29), and i start blushing. though we had coffee on wednesday and there were these awkward pauses. which i don't like. but i was very tired that day. and nervous. he makes me nervous. god, he's great for fueling daydreams. maybe i won't let anything happen...or at least see how long i can wait until something happens. i have a very strong feeling that something will. already a friend of mine has said that she sees us getting on well together. i was thinking, funny, me too. but what if this makes grad school awkward? it's not like when whatshisface left. cause there's no reason for whatshisface and i to see each other, or worlds were never really intermingled. but mcmakemeblush is in my school, in my program, in my class. it would really suck to mess that up. or to become the object of gossip so soon. oh well....at least i have the daydreams.